The Big Brother of Fate

I wanted it... For so long I wanted, I wished, I searched...

The universe then just slapped me around, laughed as if I was the main character in it's own private show....

The Big Brother of Fate!

As despair and desperateness numbed my soul, a sense of peaceful calm settled in my heart... and then I was free!

I was expeled from the show!

No more looking, no more wishing, no more searching! Free to just be...

Friends, family, sunsets, trips and night outs... I built my circle of oblivious bliss!

I didn't want it! I didn't want, nor wished nor searched...

The universe then just slapped me a bit more around, I swear I could hear it laugh...

The Big Brother of Fate again!

My veins felt awake, as if I was bleeding from within! Every cell trying to break free from my body, every inch aching...

The rush, the unsettledness, the butterflies, the clichés! It all came swirling back as if I was struck by lightning... And in a way I was!

I was suddendly reborn to a world I had long forgotten and denied!

Readmited on the show... I didn't even aplly!

My mind was aware of the consequences... Painful, atrocious, dreadful consequences!

My heart was aware of the consequences...Gratifying, rapturous, pleasurable consequences!

I caught myself torn... Good and evil, right and wrong, yes and no... The usual dichotomies reduced into mush!

In the past, I rellied on either reason or emotion... I couldn't anymore...

A whole new twist on the Big Brother of Fate!

Nothing makes sense... Everything is exciting, exhilarating, terrifying...Everything is anew!

I hadn't lost hope... I had discarded it! And it came crawling out of the trash, lodged itself under my skin...

All of me itching, craving, yearning for more, and more, and more of you!

It is tough to be on display at the Big Brother of Fate... But it's all worth it, since it led me to this moment!

It is all worth it, since it led me to you!

Revive

It's a cry, It's a roar

arising within my core

I cannot secrete, I cannot hide

such a burst won't be denied

It's a need, It's an ache

keeping the veins awake

for the heart is at stake

It's a longing, It's an urge

for two paths to converge

and surrender to temptation

It is you, It is me

on our way to damnation

A Morte da Poesia

Morreu a poesia 

Na pena do poeta

Da lírica o atleta

Dos verbos a mestria

Do fado o sofredor

Morreu a poesia

Na pena do poeta

Definhou o amor

e a expressão indiscreta

da paixão, magia e dor

Extingue-se agora uma luz

Nesta era de escuridão

e este breu que nos seduz

Encarcera-nos na prisão

da ausência de emoção

do medo de morte

de termos a pouca sorte

de nos voar o coração

Morreu a alma do poeta

e, na sua pena, a poesia

Broken Hearted

The world I’ve been wandering

Searching for the right face

For so long I’ve been running

That I’ve lost my trace

All those exquisite vultures I passed by

Whatever they did say

Or if they just wanted to try

They should have never crossed my way

They have exscinded my heart

They have scattered and ripped it apart

For a broken-hearted there’s no fate

Only a crumbling dream

Patched with hate

Going hopeless with the stream

You

You…

Drag my body through the streets of pain

Paralyse me with the mystery of your words

Capture me from the treats that I sustain

Rescue me from the black knights’ swords

Join me in my wonderland’s dream

Make it all go away

Make it all go with the stream

That appetizing mouth

What does she say?

And those mesmerizing eyes

How can they kill me everyday?

You…

Bury my soul in a casket of fantasy

Purge my restless past

Refuse me the Eden of intimacy

Adorn my pathetic misery

One never-ending moment

Forever ceased in my thought

The torment embodiment

For whom I’ve fought

You…

Sink my hopes with your prose

Share with me your lonely fate

Spoil me with that black single rose

A wave of indescribable sensations

To which I yield unwillingly

Hell’s perfect creations

Those traits that suit you amazingly

You…

Reborn in the flow of my blood

Judge my behaviour in your private trial

Pretend not to feel that breathless flood

Finish me up with a denial

Crying out for understanding

Roaring the skies for your smooth touch

To build up a love that is never-ending

You…

Restrain with scorn this fire

Challenge me with your witchcraft

Listen to my roar of desire

Ambiguity in your actions

Attraction for your secrecy

I long for your reactions

They just fill me with urgency